Remember Where You Are

It is important to be within reality, to be grounded, to be here fully with your environment. A veil, an image of our own selves and our world has been cast upon us. We need to watch this illusion, see it play its game, and return to what is, return to the Earth, and return to ourselves. Be comfortable with being uncomfortable, with being out of control, and accepting what takes place. Once this is done, can we finally open our eyes to the world for the first time. To see into our very nature. For you are your environment and your environment is you, is us, and if we internally shut-off to ourselves, we externally shut-off to our environment. The next stage for humanity, the next stage of your personal evolution is to unite with yourself internally and your universe externally. Know that this is you, it is all you. This starts with Earth, our home, our planet, our life-source, it starts now.

On a daily basis, humans struggle with their environment as if it is a hostile, separate entity that they are not in control of. Be with that feeling. Let it happen, surrender to it, surrender to yourself, surrender to fear. The world is you and you are it. Become one with yourself, with your environment, the Earth, and your experience. Your thoughts, your feelings, is the universe knowing/experiencing itself. Your entire life has been on this Earth, has been within the Universe, been within the realm of this. Be where you are, now. Be with the Earth, your home, this now mechanical jungle spinning through space. This is where you live, this is who you are; with everything on it, with all of the "happenings" within the singular, extended eternal "happening".. all right now. Be present with your body, breath, mind, and connection to the so-called "outer" world. Notice how you label it, pick it apart, and try to understand it, but all attempts are futile. To know life is to be with it and to let it go. Life is always on the move, so move with it. That is faith, true faith. Through this knowing of the unknown, you see that you are always connected and always were connected. This is understanding at the deepest level; not intellectual understanding, but a certain intuitive presence.

You grew out of it and it continues to grow out of you. Feel this connection, feel gravity upon you, keeping you locked to the earth like a magnet, feel yourself falling deeper and deeper into whatever connects you to the Earth, to whatever you rest upon. Go deeper and deeper into this. This is who you are. Everything you experience within this experience that you are currently having at this very moment is you. Nothing can escape that. Whatever is is, and yet, we live our lives as if what is is somehow lacking. We are in a constant struggle, always needing to be "there" instead of "here". And yet, here is all we have and ever will have. You can never be "there" for once "there" comes, it will then be here, and then another "there" appears, out of nothing, out of the void, out of you. This idea of there being a "there" is causing the unnatural shift humanity has taken upon the planet. This idea of obtaining something in the future for one's own self worth and mental image is an illusion so persistent that it has taken root in our world and is slowly destroying it. You are what you experience and what you experience is the totality of the universe, spontaneously shifting from within itself. Please, watch it happen for yourself. Do not take mine or anyone else's word for it. It is all apparent, no need to strain to see it, simply surrender to it.

We are still animals within the jungle. The jungle, the woods,the earth, has just been "upgraded", modernized, developed, hurt. The external world ripples from the internal and vise-versa.  The separation of the inner and outer, the game of which we play, is just that, a play, an act, an illusion. But the most glorious illusion. And to that, we surrender to it with awe. Still we think that the external world is somehow more powerful, more important, than the internal. That it pushes us around, like we are a puppet with no strings. The Earth needs us to be there for it. If we provide for it, it will provide for us. Look around you. The trees and creatures are all still here (for what remains). You are still here, you have been here this entire time. Since the spawn of your existence you have never experienced anything else besides this. With all of the humans, all of the creatures, all of the awe-experiencing, loving beings; all of the different perspectives of the same thing, all taking place upon this organic, breathing rock, floating in the cosmic sea. We are a pebble, tossed with its brothers and sisters into an endless, bottomless, eternally flowing river, with no destination insight. We are now given an opportunity. It is our choice to follow the path of nature, to re-unite with our true selves, face our fears, and restore the Earth to a more natural, harmonious, beautiful place that we all know in the depths of our hearts is possible. Or we can continue on this current path of "progress", where more is somehow considered better on a finite planet. A path of nearly schizophrenic, fear mongering behavior through this current cultural medium that we all blindly follow. Everyone follows and all you do is follow too, so really, no one is following through. Be a beacon of light. Be that spark of change that we so badly need. Voice your concerns, say what you feel, and do what you love, always. Do not let others regiment your life. You are life, so live it.

“We have to create culture, don't watch TV, don't read magazines, don't even listen to NPR. Create your own roadshow. The nexus of space and time where you are now is the most immediate sector of your universe, and if you're worrying about Michael Jackson or Bill Clinton or somebody else, then you are dis-empowered, you're giving it all away to icons, icons which are maintained by an electronic media so that you want to dress like X or have lips like Y. This is shit-brained, this kind of thinking. That is all cultural diversion, and what is real is you and your friends and your associations, your highs, your orgasms, your hopes, your plans, your fears. And we are told 'no', we're unimportant, we're peripheral. 'Get a degree, get a job, get a this, get a that.' And then you're a player, you don't want to even play in that game. You want to reclaim your mind and get it out of the hands of the cultural engineers who want to turn you into a half-baked moron consuming all this trash that's being manufactured out of the bones of a dying world.”

Terence McKenna 

Understanding and Being With Duality and the Ego

Conscience is the dog that can't bite, but never stops barking.

Proverb

The ego is the symbolic, linguistic nature of the world, the personal narrative we all experience internally about the external world. It is a useful tool that has gone too far and has overtaken the minds of many; an infestation of cultural and personal memes, a hypnosis. Just as lines of longitude and latitude are not physically there but rather mentally "put there" for navigation and help, so is the ego. It keeps coming back, spontaneously messing with you, playing with you, is you, but not all of you. Learn to love the ego. The more you fight and resist it, the more it persists. Pay attention to it, watch it dance, but don't join it. Let it go by. It's gone, it's back, it's gone, it's back. Here, there, here, there, here, there; into infinity. However, here and there are the same thing; two "sides" creating the whole one process. Duality, two seemingly separate things, is one process because one cannot be without the other to compare it to. Imagine a world with no white and only blackness. In this world of blackness you could not see anything but the blackness and because of this it would not be "black" but rather it would just be with no label. Add white into the picture and now black becomes something tangible because you have an opposite to compare it to. One cannot live without the other. If there was only good and no bad in the world, you wouldn't even know what good was seeing as you would have nothing to compare it to, therefore, there would be no good. You need bad in order to have good and black in order to have white and vise-versa.  On another level, and yet on the same level, you can "transcend" the ego and see everything from the same place but as all of it. You will see that you are the entire process, not just a speck of it.

All starts from nothing and all ends in nothing, all is therefore nothing. All dances in-between nothingness as what you are seeing right now at this very moment.

If you transcend the singular, separate, cut-off individual, you will see the whole in the individual. The internal, and the external, the bad and the good, up and down, black and white are all examples of duality. You know intuitively that they are different. Black is obviously not white, good is obviously not bad. It looks different, is different, but both are contained within The Reality (I use "the" here to emphasize the singular reality we all experience at different "times" and different angles). Everything is contained within this one connected 'thing' that we choose to call a variety of different names: The Universe, Tao, God, and any other holistic attempts at a description. This is from our separated, individually labeled dissections of the universe. I want to stress that there is nothing wrong with this, in fact, there is nothing 'wrong' with anything. Something being labeled as wrong is simply a label. From a holistic, all-seeing perspective, all is one and therefore nothing is right or wrong everything just is. Dissecting the world into parts is incredibly useful and allows us to map out our environment and share it with others. Language is beautiful. It allows us to communicate with others and gives me the ability to write these blogs. However, with our internal dialogues, it has the ability to take over you, hypnotize you, into a world of pure symbols, illusions.

I invite you to step away from your screen for a second. Breathe in fully, exhale fully, wait a second, and repeat throughout. Look around the room. Pick one thing in the room, a plant, a chair, a table, whatever. Once chosen, look at it and forget for a second it has a mental label attached to it. See it as it is and nothing more. Next, try and do this for everything in the room. Instead of seeing the room as individual parts creating and assembling the whole, see it as one connected process that grows from within itself. See it as what it is. Notice the space in-between each object and how it holds it all together, seemingly separate.

There is no outside to come in from. All is contained within. The universe is not assembled through separate parts, it grew and is still growing and you are all of it, right now. The big bang is still happening. You are not a result of the big bang, you are the big bang, coming on as whoever you are, right now. You are not just what you define yourself. The universe is playing a game with you; you are playing a game with you, but there is no "you".

Coming Back To Reality - Clearing the Illusory World Created Through Thought

"A person who thinks all the time has nothing to think about except thoughts, so he loses touch with reality and lives in a world of illusions..." 

Alan Watts 

A computer is a platform for potential programs. All programs are contained within a computer. None can "escape" or be ran outside the realm of a computer-like setting, nor does it or can it come from the "outside" in. All is contained within the computer or the web that each creates. In the same way, "you" cannot "escape" from the world because you are the world. You do not come from the "outside" "in" for all is contained within the seed of the big bang. All that you see "out there" is coming in through "your" eyes and looking back at itself. The inner and outer realms of existences are not two separate objects but one united process. The inner creates the outer and the outer creates the inner. You are both, no... you are it, you are that.

Everything contained within this moment (all of existence) is you. This biological device is an aperture in which "all of that" looks back at itself and reflects upon itself creating an echo of the present moment, the past. This, of course, creates the feeling of time, all of which incurs through the mind and more specifically, language. "It" is sending feedback loops to itself through the "echo" of the present moment that you create through the ego. Nothing is wrong with this. In fact, it is pure brilliance. The only "problem", if you want to label it that, arises when you think that there is a problem need solving. Nothing is ever "wrong" right now in this very moment. The only thing "bad" (or even "good") that occurs now is done in the fictional personal symbolic narrative of yourself, of the "I". 

Take a second and close your eyes. Relax... breathe deeply, listen to everything. Don't judge, just listen, just watch. If you catch yourself judging, do not judge the judgement for that would be a judgmental loop. Simply see that you are judging and nothing more, then "you" will no longer be judging. After a few minutes of this, ask yourself this: 

Who am I?
Wait for the response..

The entirety of existence is experiencing itself, all right now, all through you. The "real you" never leaves and yet never stays. You are not some static thing that is pushed around by the world. You are not a victim needing revenge. How can you conquer the world if you are the world, the universe, the very essence of existence. That would be like trying to bite your own teeth, impossible and rather laughable. For that is what this is. This thing called life is not serious. It is play. Laugh about it, have fun with the act of you.

 You are the world, the universe, all of existence through that existence, right now. 

Language and conscious attention try to make sense of the world, by picking it apart, piece by piece, trying to fit it together as if it was an unsolved puzzle. However, to solve the puzzle is to not solve the puzzle because there is no puzzle to solve. There are no separate pieces needing assembled. The universe grows. Perhaps in the egoic mind structures like the economy but fundamentally reality is one united process that is all of 'you'. This process needs no solving because how could you solve you, especially when you is this moment right now and this moment, that moment is foreverly moving. Forever beyond the reach of your grasp. How can your right hand grab your right hand? You are in it, no, you are it. 

The ego, conscious attention, is the feedback loop of existence. A sort of "feature" to it all. However, it is not all of existence. It is a part, but not all. Sometimes this part of existence, your story, you past, your future, your hopes, your worries, can begin to hypnotize you. The loop gets caught up in itself and loops around the loop, which creates for a very.. loopy perspective. It creates a fictional player whom reads hundreds of book all from the same book. A hesitation occurs. Calculations upon calculations are ran but nothing comes up and when the loop ends, a split-second, spontaneous decision is made, always. Computer scientists might refer to the this mental chatter as a recursive loop: A loop that never breaks and only the input values (thoughts) differ until a code is given to end it. Fortunately for you, you already know the code. You've had "the code" this entire time, thinking you have not. That right there is your problem. You try to "one up" the world, your mind, yourself, as if it is something outside of you working against you. You and the world, your environment, the universe work together. But there is no "together" in which two or more "things" come together. That would imply separation. In a universe that grows from within itself, like a seed into a tree, nothing can come from the outside in. All is contained within. All is All.  The "each" and "other"  that we experience is from the symbolic use of the world through language. A language that requires a subject. Who said there needed to be a subject? What if there was just "it" and "it" played itself?

When the loop begins to loop around itself, a feeling of disconnect and a world consisting of illusions occurs.  Egotistical behavior is a result so that one can try and prove to the world that they are there, that they are real, that there is something deep down inside of them (or maybe outside of them) that is the center of their self. I promise you this. You will never find that center because there is no center to find. So stop what you are trying to do and just listen. Do you hear it? Where does it all come from? Really listen now. Take a minute or two.. Close your eyes. Breathe.. Say "hello" in your head. Do it again and again, but slowly. Notice where it comes and goes. Do you hear it? It all comes from nothing and returns to nothing with an echo. All is nothing, you are nothing; and yet it is all everything. 

5 Mind Expanding Videos - Take A Second For Yourself

The videos speak for themselves. Take a second out of your day, stop what you are doing, relax, and listen. 

Joe Rogan and Duncan Trussell - Floating In Infinity

Jason Silva - The Omega Point

Russell Brand - On life and love

Terence Mckenna and Joe Rogan - Awaken from the cultural narrative

Joe Rogan - What Is Reality?

Here's a little bonus video :)

Confronting Fear - Knowing the Unknown

You don't know anything.

And that's okay. As a collective global whole the human race knows almost nothing about how everything works (or more specifically why it works), we just know that it does and what repeats we call a fact. Things change, plates shift, houses break, people die.. you will die. We all know this, and yet we pretend we don't. What is needed is a confrontation with the unknown. Know the unknown. Play with it, laugh with it, be it.

"What blinds us, or what makes historical progress very difficult, is our lack of awareness of our ignorance."

 Terrence Mckenna

What is it that separates and duplicates everything on the cellular level, creating life as we know it? What makes particles "clump" together to create matter? What makes cells multiply and form together to then create you and other forms of life?  Why is it that particles, the building blocks of our universe, all have a magnetic charge to them? Why does the universe stay together? Why are we here? How do I will myself to do anything? Do "I" even do it? Who is the "I" that refers to the "I"? Why does everything  in the universe: planets, galaxies, trees, animals, rocks, everything, always come in multiple, why not just one?  What is consciousness? What is this? These are all fundamental questions unanswered. Can they even be answered? It's almost like the more we dig, the more wacky and complex everything gets like a foreverly complexifying kaleidoscope with no end (especially when you dive into the very nature of our reality, quantum mechanics). Terence Mckenna refers to the universe as a novelty producing engine. Humans have been leaving the world at higher and higher levels of complexity throughout the years. You too will do this throughout your experience here on Earth.  Mckenna theorizes that the universe will reach a point of no return and humans will "step out of the boundaries of matter". However, seeing as where are here right now, we might as will stay right here and not leap to any conclusions (which is of course all ideas, nothing concrete) and instead confront this unknown, your unknown, the unknown, and let the world spontaneously complexify in front us. Watch the art, watch the act.

I invite you to take a step back for a second from where you are now and look at everything's entire timeline, including your own. Notice how that tree outside started out as a seed. You started as a zygote. The universe (supposedly thus far) started as a quantum fluctuating crushed point smaller than the size of a head of a pin. What is everything doing? Starting at a singular point and then growing from within itself. Complexifying and multiplying in particular areas of the whole (a tree, you, a mountain, earth, planets, galaxies, stars, etc.) until it can no longer and then transfers that energy else where in its own unique way. It all goes back. The tree is already implied with the seed. In essence, the tree is the seed and the seed is the tree.

Before the big bang everything was crunched together into a very, very small "ball". Then BAM! The bang exploded and you, sitting here right now reading this, are a result of that. We tend to define ourselves as only that small little fragment of the entire process, and yet, billions of years of go you were a big bang. However, that bang is still in process. You are the big bang coming on as whoever you are, right now. You were implied, we were implied, all was implied in the seed of the big bang. You are the big bang, you are the universe, and the universe is you.


All of our lives we have been searching and searching for the truth in the external world. A "dead" truth that requires no further experience or searching. And yet, the only "truth" "out there" has been right here in front of you this whole time: Experience, your experience, right now. Truth keeps going and you are it. The moment, the now, is forever present and yet forever fleeting. It never leaves and yet never stays. It is gone before you can rationalize it, and once you do you are already referring to the past, not the present. Confront the unknown, know the unknown, and more importantly know yourself because you are that unknown. You are your fear and yet the two are not separate. Next time fear shows up in your life, stare into the very essence of it, fill yourself with it, embrace it. Don't think about it, just watch it. Thinking about or judging fear or anything else during the experience of fear, is fear. Fear is the running away from what is. Thinking is a way of distracting yourself from it, hiding yourself from who you truly really are. We don't want to know, really, at least not just yet. For now, it's a game of hide and seek. Watch how you pretend to be something that which you are not. Notice how in order to know who you are, you have to know that which you are not so by being that which you are not, you are being who you are. Next time fear comes up in your life, listen to it, follow it, be it. Feel it  and embrace it with every inch of your being. Watch it disappear, watch what happens, be what happens.

"When you see that you are a part of fear, not separate from it - that you are fear - then you cannot do anything about it; then fear comes totally to an end." 

Jiddu Krishnamurti, Freedom From the Known

Russel Brand Calls For A Revolution On BBC And How We Can Start One

If you haven’t seen the video, check it out.

In the video we see Russel getting incredibly fired up about the problems that we face today. He points out how the current paradigms (narratives) that we collectively live within (a hierarchical government, corporations, banks, monetary system etc.) are not working. He calls for a revolution. He does not say how it will happen, but he knows it will. I think this is huge. When I first heard of Brand getting into this sort of thing, I thought that he, along with many other socially aware “famous” people, could potentially help spark a deep internal and thus external (r)evolution much needed. People look up to those who are famous. They listen to them. Perhaps this time it can be for something worth listening to rather than the next hairstyle to rock. 

We need to take the power of our lives back. First, we need to recognize that we are being controlled.. conditioned. We need to take a deep look at ourselves and watch what we do, how we act, and how we think. We all know the grind of the work week and the weekends. Is there more to life than this? Notice how we all go to our ‘jobs’ where we work for a thing called a ‘corporation’ to receive another thing called ‘money’, that apparently has some value. You then exchange this ‘money’, or more simply put, paper, for food, shelter, and material wants/needs from more ‘corporations’. We participate in this delusion. You participate in this delusion. I participate in this delusion (but not for long). If you aren’t doing anything and are simply watching it all go by while you sit and stare and think, damn, how can I do something to help this world? And then tell yourself no, no, I can’t, not me, I can’t change the world. Then you are contributing to the problem. Don’t change the world, change yourself. Everyone has to act; you have to act. There is no one-thing in and of itself. It is all one. If you act we all act. So.. act!

And how do you act? That is the question that no one really knows how to answer. What is good talking about the problems in the world without a solution? Well... I have one. 

Take back your power. You are being controlled by money, your job, etc. Provide your own energy, grow your own food, build your own shelter… with friends of course! Live 100% off the grid. If we collectively did this, the economy could collapse and instead of everyone entering something 100X worse than the depression, we would be safe in our sustainable homes, living off the land, working with nature (which in-turn is us), not against it. We can leave the "economy” and all of the other bullshit in the dust and never look back. Oh… and the economy will collapse. Let it. MIT predicts by 2030 it will. I think sooner. But don’t wait… act now or it will be too late.

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