Coming Back To Reality - Clearing the Illusory World Created Through Thought

"A person who thinks all the time has nothing to think about except thoughts, so he loses touch with reality and lives in a world of illusions..." 

Alan Watts 

A computer is a platform for potential programs. All programs are contained within a computer. None can "escape" or be ran outside the realm of a computer-like setting, nor does it or can it come from the "outside" in. All is contained within the computer or the web that each creates. In the same way, "you" cannot "escape" from the world because you are the world. You do not come from the "outside" "in" for all is contained within the seed of the big bang. All that you see "out there" is coming in through "your" eyes and looking back at itself. The inner and outer realms of existences are not two separate objects but one united process. The inner creates the outer and the outer creates the inner. You are both, no... you are it, you are that.

Everything contained within this moment (all of existence) is you. This biological device is an aperture in which "all of that" looks back at itself and reflects upon itself creating an echo of the present moment, the past. This, of course, creates the feeling of time, all of which incurs through the mind and more specifically, language. "It" is sending feedback loops to itself through the "echo" of the present moment that you create through the ego. Nothing is wrong with this. In fact, it is pure brilliance. The only "problem", if you want to label it that, arises when you think that there is a problem need solving. Nothing is ever "wrong" right now in this very moment. The only thing "bad" (or even "good") that occurs now is done in the fictional personal symbolic narrative of yourself, of the "I". 

Take a second and close your eyes. Relax... breathe deeply, listen to everything. Don't judge, just listen, just watch. If you catch yourself judging, do not judge the judgement for that would be a judgmental loop. Simply see that you are judging and nothing more, then "you" will no longer be judging. After a few minutes of this, ask yourself this: 

Who am I?
Wait for the response..

The entirety of existence is experiencing itself, all right now, all through you. The "real you" never leaves and yet never stays. You are not some static thing that is pushed around by the world. You are not a victim needing revenge. How can you conquer the world if you are the world, the universe, the very essence of existence. That would be like trying to bite your own teeth, impossible and rather laughable. For that is what this is. This thing called life is not serious. It is play. Laugh about it, have fun with the act of you.

 You are the world, the universe, all of existence through that existence, right now. 

Language and conscious attention try to make sense of the world, by picking it apart, piece by piece, trying to fit it together as if it was an unsolved puzzle. However, to solve the puzzle is to not solve the puzzle because there is no puzzle to solve. There are no separate pieces needing assembled. The universe grows. Perhaps in the egoic mind structures like the economy but fundamentally reality is one united process that is all of 'you'. This process needs no solving because how could you solve you, especially when you is this moment right now and this moment, that moment is foreverly moving. Forever beyond the reach of your grasp. How can your right hand grab your right hand? You are in it, no, you are it. 

The ego, conscious attention, is the feedback loop of existence. A sort of "feature" to it all. However, it is not all of existence. It is a part, but not all. Sometimes this part of existence, your story, you past, your future, your hopes, your worries, can begin to hypnotize you. The loop gets caught up in itself and loops around the loop, which creates for a very.. loopy perspective. It creates a fictional player whom reads hundreds of book all from the same book. A hesitation occurs. Calculations upon calculations are ran but nothing comes up and when the loop ends, a split-second, spontaneous decision is made, always. Computer scientists might refer to the this mental chatter as a recursive loop: A loop that never breaks and only the input values (thoughts) differ until a code is given to end it. Fortunately for you, you already know the code. You've had "the code" this entire time, thinking you have not. That right there is your problem. You try to "one up" the world, your mind, yourself, as if it is something outside of you working against you. You and the world, your environment, the universe work together. But there is no "together" in which two or more "things" come together. That would imply separation. In a universe that grows from within itself, like a seed into a tree, nothing can come from the outside in. All is contained within. All is All.  The "each" and "other"  that we experience is from the symbolic use of the world through language. A language that requires a subject. Who said there needed to be a subject? What if there was just "it" and "it" played itself?

When the loop begins to loop around itself, a feeling of disconnect and a world consisting of illusions occurs.  Egotistical behavior is a result so that one can try and prove to the world that they are there, that they are real, that there is something deep down inside of them (or maybe outside of them) that is the center of their self. I promise you this. You will never find that center because there is no center to find. So stop what you are trying to do and just listen. Do you hear it? Where does it all come from? Really listen now. Take a minute or two.. Close your eyes. Breathe.. Say "hello" in your head. Do it again and again, but slowly. Notice where it comes and goes. Do you hear it? It all comes from nothing and returns to nothing with an echo. All is nothing, you are nothing; and yet it is all everything. 

5 Mind Expanding Videos - Take A Second For Yourself

The videos speak for themselves. Take a second out of your day, stop what you are doing, relax, and listen. 

Joe Rogan and Duncan Trussell - Floating In Infinity

Jason Silva - The Omega Point

Russell Brand - On life and love

Terence Mckenna and Joe Rogan - Awaken from the cultural narrative

Joe Rogan - What Is Reality?

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Confronting Fear - Knowing the Unknown

You don't know anything.

And that's okay. As a collective global whole the human race knows almost nothing about how everything works (or more specifically why it works), we just know that it does and what repeats we call a fact. Things change, plates shift, houses break, people die.. you will die. We all know this, and yet we pretend we don't. What is needed is a confrontation with the unknown. Know the unknown. Play with it, laugh with it, be it.

"What blinds us, or what makes historical progress very difficult, is our lack of awareness of our ignorance."

 Terrence Mckenna

What is it that separates and duplicates everything on the cellular level, creating life as we know it? What makes particles "clump" together to create matter? What makes cells multiply and form together to then create you and other forms of life?  Why is it that particles, the building blocks of our universe, all have a magnetic charge to them? Why does the universe stay together? Why are we here? How do I will myself to do anything? Do "I" even do it? Who is the "I" that refers to the "I"? Why does everything  in the universe: planets, galaxies, trees, animals, rocks, everything, always come in multiple, why not just one?  What is consciousness? What is this? These are all fundamental questions unanswered. Can they even be answered? It's almost like the more we dig, the more wacky and complex everything gets like a foreverly complexifying kaleidoscope with no end (especially when you dive into the very nature of our reality, quantum mechanics). Terence Mckenna refers to the universe as a novelty producing engine. Humans have been leaving the world at higher and higher levels of complexity throughout the years. You too will do this throughout your experience here on Earth.  Mckenna theorizes that the universe will reach a point of no return and humans will "step out of the boundaries of matter". However, seeing as where are here right now, we might as will stay right here and not leap to any conclusions (which is of course all ideas, nothing concrete) and instead confront this unknown, your unknown, the unknown, and let the world spontaneously complexify in front us. Watch the art, watch the act.

I invite you to take a step back for a second from where you are now and look at everything's entire timeline, including your own. Notice how that tree outside started out as a seed. You started as a zygote. The universe (supposedly thus far) started as a quantum fluctuating crushed point smaller than the size of a head of a pin. What is everything doing? Starting at a singular point and then growing from within itself. Complexifying and multiplying in particular areas of the whole (a tree, you, a mountain, earth, planets, galaxies, stars, etc.) until it can no longer and then transfers that energy else where in its own unique way. It all goes back. The tree is already implied with the seed. In essence, the tree is the seed and the seed is the tree.

Before the big bang everything was crunched together into a very, very small "ball". Then BAM! The bang exploded and you, sitting here right now reading this, are a result of that. We tend to define ourselves as only that small little fragment of the entire process, and yet, billions of years of go you were a big bang. However, that bang is still in process. You are the big bang coming on as whoever you are, right now. You were implied, we were implied, all was implied in the seed of the big bang. You are the big bang, you are the universe, and the universe is you.


All of our lives we have been searching and searching for the truth in the external world. A "dead" truth that requires no further experience or searching. And yet, the only "truth" "out there" has been right here in front of you this whole time: Experience, your experience, right now. Truth keeps going and you are it. The moment, the now, is forever present and yet forever fleeting. It never leaves and yet never stays. It is gone before you can rationalize it, and once you do you are already referring to the past, not the present. Confront the unknown, know the unknown, and more importantly know yourself because you are that unknown. You are your fear and yet the two are not separate. Next time fear shows up in your life, stare into the very essence of it, fill yourself with it, embrace it. Don't think about it, just watch it. Thinking about or judging fear or anything else during the experience of fear, is fear. Fear is the running away from what is. Thinking is a way of distracting yourself from it, hiding yourself from who you truly really are. We don't want to know, really, at least not just yet. For now, it's a game of hide and seek. Watch how you pretend to be something that which you are not. Notice how in order to know who you are, you have to know that which you are not so by being that which you are not, you are being who you are. Next time fear comes up in your life, listen to it, follow it, be it. Feel it  and embrace it with every inch of your being. Watch it disappear, watch what happens, be what happens.

"When you see that you are a part of fear, not separate from it - that you are fear - then you cannot do anything about it; then fear comes totally to an end." 

Jiddu Krishnamurti, Freedom From the Known

Russel Brand Calls For A Revolution On BBC And How We Can Start One

If you haven’t seen the video, check it out.

In the video we see Russel getting incredibly fired up about the problems that we face today. He points out how the current paradigms (narratives) that we collectively live within (a hierarchical government, corporations, banks, monetary system etc.) are not working. He calls for a revolution. He does not say how it will happen, but he knows it will. I think this is huge. When I first heard of Brand getting into this sort of thing, I thought that he, along with many other socially aware “famous” people, could potentially help spark a deep internal and thus external (r)evolution much needed. People look up to those who are famous. They listen to them. Perhaps this time it can be for something worth listening to rather than the next hairstyle to rock. 

We need to take the power of our lives back. First, we need to recognize that we are being controlled.. conditioned. We need to take a deep look at ourselves and watch what we do, how we act, and how we think. We all know the grind of the work week and the weekends. Is there more to life than this? Notice how we all go to our ‘jobs’ where we work for a thing called a ‘corporation’ to receive another thing called ‘money’, that apparently has some value. You then exchange this ‘money’, or more simply put, paper, for food, shelter, and material wants/needs from more ‘corporations’. We participate in this delusion. You participate in this delusion. I participate in this delusion (but not for long). If you aren’t doing anything and are simply watching it all go by while you sit and stare and think, damn, how can I do something to help this world? And then tell yourself no, no, I can’t, not me, I can’t change the world. Then you are contributing to the problem. Don’t change the world, change yourself. Everyone has to act; you have to act. There is no one-thing in and of itself. It is all one. If you act we all act. So.. act!

And how do you act? That is the question that no one really knows how to answer. What is good talking about the problems in the world without a solution? Well... I have one. 

Take back your power. You are being controlled by money, your job, etc. Provide your own energy, grow your own food, build your own shelter… with friends of course! Live 100% off the grid. If we collectively did this, the economy could collapse and instead of everyone entering something 100X worse than the depression, we would be safe in our sustainable homes, living off the land, working with nature (which in-turn is us), not against it. We can leave the "economy” and all of the other bullshit in the dust and never look back. Oh… and the economy will collapse. Let it. MIT predicts by 2030 it will. I think sooner. But don’t wait… act now or it will be too late.

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5 Things To Start Noticing Throughout Your Day

A majority of the time we go about our days not really in our bodies but rather inside the cyclical nature of thought. When inside the internal "act", we are not "in our bodies" and are rather "in our heads." This leads to egoic structures being built all around us; from relationships all the way to economic systems. In order to drop the ego (even though there is nothing to necessarily drop), we must be mindful throughout our day. Be aware of what is happening, truly. Here are some things to start becoming aware of throughout your day which will lead to a more peaceful existence..

1. Driving

We all know the drill. Get in your car, put on the music, zone out, arrive at your destination. I challenge you to next time you get in the car, keep the music off and do some deep breathing throughout the ride. Inhale fully through the nose, exhale fully through the mouth. Let each breath fall in and out. Feel your body and the "external" objects you rest upon. Feel your foot on the gas and your other foot resting beside it. Feel your hands upon the steering wheel. Be mindful of what is... come back to your senses. Don't forget, internal thought is cyclical so you most likely will have thoughts throughout this. Do not suppress them for they go away on their own. Your mind is void. Be the watcher of thought and allow it all to flow into the void.

2. Washing Your Hands

We're all animals. There is no getting around this. We all use the restroom and then, preferably, wash our hands. Instead of rushing through this as if it is some annoying task, slow down and feel the warm water upon your hands. Gently rub and massage yourself, being mindful the entire time of your senses and the experience that is. Soon you will love washing your hands. It can and is incredibly relaxing. 

3. Your Habits

Whether it is Facebook, Twitter, Video games, TV, Netflix, junk food, whatever, we all have habits. Now, I would not say humans at the core are habitual. If anything I would say our egos are and if we were to break free from that psychological prison we would be aware of the infinite potentiality each this moment contains. By becoming aware of ourselves, watching ourselves, and watching our internal dialogue, only then will we see our habits in full view. Breaking habits are hard, but if you don't even know what they are, how can you even break them? Start meditating daily for 10 minutes and increase overtime, this will help with identification of the said habits.  Next time you feel the urge to begin one of your usual habits, catch yourself in the act. Sit back, close your eyes, and breathe deeply. Notice how there is a pull towards it, just notice it... that is all it takes. Eventually, changing your habits will become as easy as 1, 2, 3. Let go of what no longer serves you. 

4. Walking

Walking, it's how we get around, and a majority of the time we aren't even aware of the sensuous experience of it. Walking can be incredibly blissful, especially when it's 80 degrees out and you're walking barefoot on some warm grass. After you get up after reading this article, I challenge you to notice each step you take. Try to be aware of it all, your thoughts, breath, and how you so easily will yourself to walk. Part of the reason we don't notice ourselves walking is due to shoes. Shoes are a barrier between the ground and us, potentially creating a false-reality on not being in reality. It can be incredibly difficult being mindful of your walking all day long, but I challenge you to start today. The more you practice it, the more mindful you get, and the more peaceful your life becomes.

5. Your Biological and Extended Body

Your body is not some separate thing to this universe. You are a part of the whole and the whole is in the part. No one-thing in and of itself exists. Notice how you are in constant contact with your environment. You can't not be. Every time you sit down, become aware of the chair, sofa, whatever, that rests upon your body. If you get down to it, you can feel almost a levitating effect through this. Notice the space that you so easily walk through and that keeps everything as it should be, seemingly separate. To put this more simply for I cannot possibly go through each and every scenario: Be that! 

Time Is Always Now

Think back to when you were a child. Pick your favorite, most vivid memory. Once chosen, visualize it. Notice how you are drawing back to this memory from this moment, right now. In this foggy visualization, you will discover that when this moment was happening, it was now. I am not saying that when you were six or seven you were however old you are now, but what I am saying is that your experience had in the past, was happening in the "now" moment. Now think ahead to your death bed. Here you are, with all of your achievements, loves, fears, and losses attained thus far, about to vanish into nothingness. When this experience happens, it will then be now. Remember this: All experience happens now. No experience can be had outside of the now. There is no other time, in fact, there is no such thing as time. Humans pop up into the "great stream" of existence and vanish some odd years later. The only reason we think things have a beginning and an ending is because of our own "beginning" and "ending". When in reality, the two are one. You can't begin unless you ended and you can't end unless you began. This goes for any forms of duality (good and bad being one of the most "predominant" ones).

Let's go farther back. Let's go to a time when you were non-existent, when this planet was non-existent, in fact, when this universe was non-existent. Let's go back to the big bang, the singularity that bursted towards what is now. The "time" when everything in existence was condensed into something smaller than the size of the head of a pin; when everything was truly one. There was no space, there was no time. Everything just was, or really I should say, is nothing. During this condensed energetic state, it was now.. and it is still now. Your existence, this existence, is a singularity, the singularity, all occurring right now. We are the condensed energy state of oneness being expressed through biology. We are the whole being reflected in the part, and the part being reflecting in the whole. You can see this connectedness in everyday life. It does not take any visualization to achieve this. By simply seeing everything right now as it is is enough. Don't try to be anything for you will only be trying to be a mental image, something that which you are not. Simply, be who you are. Don't forget, no one-thing in and of itself exists. All is relative, all relates. If you define and label an object, you are creating a false separation within the mind. Sure, this is useful, but if everything is taken as separate, individual objects completely unrelated to each other, it can make us feel separate and alien to the world. We are divided through the intellect. The intellect is a great tool that has been taken for granted. Remember, the intellect is a part of experience, not all of experience.

So let's review. Back before the big bang it was now. Millions of years after the occurrence of the big bang, it was still now. And now it is obviously still now, forever present for infinity. Time is not real besides in our minds. Our minds are a storage device for all of our existence, all being expressed right now. Right now, it is before the big bang, everything condensed into a singularity. Right now, it is right now. Right now, it is tomorrow. There are no separate events (besides for the labeling of our intellect). There is only one event, right now!

Everything is compressed into this moment. Our biological devices allow us to maneuver through it, glimpsing the whole from different perspectives, both on the micro, macro, and all different levels that are available through technology, the intellect, and imagination. Experience is one forever changing, spontaneous "image". Everything consists in this moment. Your birth and your death, the beginning and the end, the Alpha and the Omega. You are "god", I am "god". All is one. It all goes together... now.